welcome to pc. you will find a lot of support here. i take meds to control my psychosis, depression and anxiety.
i take them because for me they are helping me get better. i know some medications can be intrusive because of the side effects. does u're doctor know you stop taking your meds? it really is good to just stop your meds. you should talk to your doctor about your feelings and hopefully you can come up with a treatment plan that works for you. best of luck.

-agony007