Although being alone or not getting out triggers me, the worst is the beach nearby. Why? Because the last time I was severely suicidal, I decided to kill myself on the beach, because I thought it would be a nice, peaceful place to die. What I hadn't realized was that it was a weekend and even though it was February, the weather was nice enough to draw crowds. I sat and layed on the beach for 2 hours, trying to convince myself to do it, but there were too many children and I just couldn't bring myself to do it with them there. I knew yp that I could suicide discretely, even with crowds...but for a child to have to see or witness that after someone eventually discovered me was too much. I packed my stuff and went home. I've never been back to the beach or try to think much of it because it always brings back that horrible memory.