This past year has had some challenges and it made me finally wonder, does bipolar get worse as you get older. So I came back here to ask questions, the consensus seemed at the time yes. But I wanted to mention. I have in the past been active, going to regular water aerobics classes, I was a member and group facilitator for NAMI mental health support group. I saw people, I spent time reading about all types of topics both fiction and nonfiction. So I didnt depend solely on my meds to keep me healthy. My mood episodes always start with mania, slide down to mixed and whir around a little then fall into depression. I had a mood episode that started in Feb and I guess ended late May but it took away my support group that I had depended on for over 4 years. Then water class became sporadic. I hyperfocused on my sons engagement party so that summer basically passed me by. And now I cant read, I cant focus. I can barely stand movies. Now I went back into another episode in Sept and I'm struggling to climb back up.
So while I am pro med, I am also pro activity. I just cant figure out how to get back what was once me. My T wont let me go back to NAMI. It was just too much for me. It has more to do with the anxiety. Looking back at what I wrote I guess this whole year has been almost one long episode of cycles.