Angel, I'm so sorry that you're experiencing this pain - I wish you didn't, and that I could just take it all away, and only leave joy and love and peace... but until then, try and hold on okay? I really hope you don't SI, but I know how it gets sometimes... Just hold off for as long as you can, and maybe distract yourself with things you love, like eating chocolate or watching a really good movie or going for a long walk outside to clear your mind. Things get really hard sometimes, really incredibly difficult, and it's nearly impossible to imagine them getting better - but they always do. So hold on tight, Angel, and a better day will come soon, I know it will. Feel free to pm me if you need to talk, or just chat about random things, or need a friend. I'm always here, every day