I figured out a little bit why I am so sad and depressed when my children aren't with me, but with my ex. I have been divorced since 10/03, have shared parenting of my 13yr old twins, but the days they are not with me are getting harder to live through. See, all there lives I have been there 24/7, they were the reason for getting out of bed everyday. I gave my all to them, and they were my only reason for living life. Now they are with me only half of the time. When they are gone, part of me is gone. I feel empty, alone, guilty for the divorce, how can I live on the days they are not with me? I hate this pain, I wish it would go away................... 13 yrs. ago I lost a 3yr old daughter due to a housefire. It feels like the same pain.
Thanks for listening