I am in a "relationship" with someone that I have ZERO attraction to. I simply said I would date her because I did not want to feel shallow. I have no physical or emotional attraction for her. She has no clue about that fact, and thinks everything is okay. But I get annoyed just when she texts me, because I just am not very interested in her. I feel terrible and so selfish because of this.

I am suffering from severe depression and I think that could be a part of why I get angry if she texts, but at the same time I just have so many things about myself that I'm worried about and I'm trying to get on the right "track" with my own life.

I am not a "physical" guy if you know what I mean, but I'm just not physically attracted to her in any way at all. This makes me feel like I am so shallow, especially because she is a good person.

Emotionally, there is zero attraction as well. Sometimes I do get afraid she will catch on and leave, simply because I also do not want to be alone. But I just do not have any actual attraction at all. I haven't even kissed her and its been really over a year.

What do I do? I feel so selfish and shallow about this.