You are grieving for the loss of your daughter and I dont think you ever get over it. You just learn to live with it and hopefully come to some type of acceptance. My brother died last year and I see my dad is tormented over his death. Of course you are angry and you probably will be for a long time. Is there anyone in your family that you can be this honest with. But to be frank I found that I could be more honest here on PC. Best wishes to you