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Originally Posted by amandalouise
I dont know about where you are but here in NY there is a difference between ..inner children....and ...alters...
here inner children is more a feeling, not an alter..
example sometimes when I get overwhelmed with too much going on I....feel ....like I did when I was a 10 year old child lost in the mine shafts. cognitively I know Im not 10 years old feeling lost and alone but mentally I feel that way. this my therapist calls an inner child.
when I wasnt integrated my alters on the other hand were taking over control of the body when ever there was something that I could not handle on my own. they would take care of those things I could not do for myself. All of my alters had their own jobs, purposes, reasons for being, own way of being ...they each had their own ages, toys, likes,...you name it they had their own way of being. this is what my treatment providers called my alternate personalities.
the best place to start with learning about DID is from your own treatment providers (your medical doctor, your psychiatrist, your therapist) they can give you information based on what your own comprehension rate/levels are..
for information not based on your comprehension rate/level well at the top of many of the forums boards you will find a thread marked ...resources.... thats where everyone posts things like for instance books they have found helpful on many different problems/mental disorders/symptoms.
amazon.com also has some great reading materials about mental disorders. some of which you can click on the book icon and read an excerpt from the book to see if thats what you are looking for. sometimes if I dont have the money to purchase the book on amazon right then when I need it I write the book information down and take the information to the city library. they locate a copy of the book for me. this way I get to read the book and decide if its worth the money to purchase it.
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I consider my inner children alters because of what my daughter has told me. They come out when I'm sleeping. My youngest inner child is about 3, doesn't usually talk much except to ask my daughter if she can watch a cartoon with her or have some chocolate or candy, and she calls herself Tremor. My other inner child is about 7, she calls herself Laura and calls me Lori, and she likes to act like a bratty little sister to my daughter. As far as my daughter has told me, none of my personalities like me. They don't trust me and they think I'm a big loser.
From what I have read about DID and inner children so far, I know I have to try to basically "parent" myself and try to heal the past wounds of my inner children. It sounds good, but I can't even take care of myself well. How am I supposed to deal with the problems I have going on in my adult life and deal with a lot of the past wounds that I don't even remember everything about?
I know a good therapist would be able to help me, but right now I can't move closer to a good therapist to get help. I'll take a look at the books mentioned on here though and do some more reading.