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Old Nov 17, 2013, 12:05 PM
Tremor Tremor is offline
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Location: Meadville, PA
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Originally Posted by Neptune83 View Post
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder a few years ago and firmly believe it to be incorrect. A therapist I had before the diagnosis thought it was DID and I think she is correct. I can say that I seem to have an "inner child" that appears to get stuck. One minute I'm ok, the next without warning I'm a teenager again. I have five kids and I look at them thinking who are you? I recall feelings of not knowing who these people are (my husband, my kids), feeling rage, sticking two fingers up at the world etc I become terrified that I am supposed to be a mother, I'm meant to be 30 years old and I think how am I supposed to look after you when I'm a kid myself. I don't recognise my face, it looks so much older and it's not me.
I will go blank, into my own world which has been something I've done for many many years. I can't explain it well because to myself now, that's all it is - blank. Then I'm back in the room again wondering what on earth has gone on. How much time has gone by? Who have I upset this time? My husband tells me things I've said but I can only recall intense anger.
That's the teen personality. There are a few other parts I've become aware of over the last couple of years. I don't see them as separate people, I see them as different parts of the same person, some I have been, some that have been created either from other people or by myself as a means to protect myself. There's only one that has a name as far as I am aware, I don't know where it came from or why.
I think you should speak to someone better trained to help you other than your GP. As far as I'm aware DID isn't treatable with meds, but therapy. I think you can treat certain symptoms, for example anxiety if that's one, with meds but there isn't a medication to treat it as a whole like perhaps you might treat depression with antidepressants.
Why not have a look at Mind's site.
Thank you for replying! Yes, I feel a lot like you do. I have two inner children = Tremor and Laura, one angry personality without a name but hasn't come out again since I learned I have DID (crossing my fingers it doesn't appear again), AuntieMay, and AuntieMay's created friend alter named Jim. Jim is supposed to be a gay Asian guy. My daughter said I would carry on conversations with her being AuntieMay and Jim - all at the same time. AuntieMay seems to be getting stronger...especially since she came out while I was awake. I guess Jim has disappeared and AuntieMay acts like he never existed. Ugh.
How is your therapist helping you? Do you try to parent your inner children and try to make them feel safe? I know I have problems trying to help myself - let alone my inner children. Like you, I have children, and at times it is hard to be nurturing like a parent when it's hard to nurture myself.
Have you figured out what helps?