I have spent years ruining my life and everyone's life around me. Lately I have just felt that I need a fresh start going back to a simpler life. I have family that loves me but they really don't understand (we are a family that hides their heads in the sand waiting for the storm to pass) and lately I have a feeling that I just need to get away and get a fresh start. I know it is just running from my problems but right now my problems are killing me and I'm not sure how much longer I can survive. I've been without hope for so long that even the simplest pleasures are almost non existent. The only joy I have is my every other weekend with my son (13) and spending time with my great niece (2). I'm running out of steam and just can't keep up anymore.