Aside from T listening (attentively) to what I want to tell her, I don't really desire any kind of interaction with her most of the time. The exception to that would be the times (usually when my mood starts failing) and I get lonely and want her to be "around" me/quietly sit with me or other times where I just want her to hold my hand. In neither instance do I want her to talk to me, coddle me or anything. I just yearn for her to be "present". But again, thats not even all, or most, of the time.

I told her about this before to an extent (told her that it felt like I missed her but felt unacceptable/stalkerish) and she said said that I link T/sessions/the room with an environment where I feel peaceful, content, safe. She said it was normal to think about/associate a place that comforts me when i'm feeling upset/sad/alone whatever. Except now i feel like i'm linking everything to her & sessions etc. when i'm feeling just fine. I've had a very nice week.

I wonder if it has to do also with the fact that my circle is very small (in regards to people I talk to more often than once every few months) and so her being "the new one", she's just my unintended target?