I don't know what is going on with me... I have been extremely depressed and suicidal, but then, 3 days ago I was super hyper, and yesterday I was feeling strangely happy (which has been very foreign to me as of late). I started St. John's wort 3 days ago (after being off anti-deps for 3 weeks). I don't get what is going on with me... Often feel like I'm not in control of my own brain.