I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with this relationship. Sounds like there are a few issues going on here. You and your gf definitely need to go to counseling together to sort this all out and determine whether or not you want to move forward or end the relationship. The beauty of doing this in counseling is that whatever you decide to do, the therapist will be there to ensure that you are both okay and feel safe and secure in your decision. Good luck to you, whatever you decide, you'll be okay