Everyone slips up now and then and that's ok it's normal. It is also ok to be scared,This is all part of being human and it's also part of healing. Being honest with yourself and the people that care about you is the best thing to do. They may not like your choice but they will help you, and respect you for having the courage to be honest. Try to remember you are not perfect and nor is anyone else. Mistakes are how we learn life's little lessons.