Hes home today, we went to our friends funeral, he feels horrible, and im going to keep it that way until he proves himself to me. my parents really dont want me seeing him, and since im not 18 yet, what they say, goes. i feel horrible. i have absolutly no friends since im not in school, and i live in the hills, far away from everything. my parents always want me home, and jared doesnt like comming over. he really is a great person, you guys only hear the bad things about him. i love him, and he tells me every day that he doesnt want to loose me, but we all know and i told him, that hes starting to. i dont know what to do all day now. he was my life. he is my life. dont tell me to take care of myself, because i am. dont tell me to be possitive, because im trying. dont give me hugs or say keep ur chin up, cuz it doesnt help. i need jared. and nobodys gets that. nobody agrees, because they dont see things the way i do, nobody does, and nobody ever will. i love jared, and people need to accept that and LET me be with my BOYFRIEND.