Thanks guys for the positive comments. I read that some of you went through this same thing, I thought I was some 'pyscho' like my boyfriend called me. I just dumped him yesterday. He's too disrespectful, asks me for $$, and he does pot, and tons more. He use to be the total opposite. We were together for 19 months. It's pretty hard to NOT call him. I hope he doesn't tell kids at school about my problems, like depression and stuff.
I realized I haven't done anything for my self in a long time. So I went shopping by myself today and got some new clothes and stuff. I asked this guy on aim, who's in my lunch at school, if I could sit with his friends and him. He said yeah, but I gotta stop being 'too proud'. I'm anything but proud. But I guess since I really don't talk to people, they might think I'm too proud? I dunno.
Anyways, thanks guys for helping me and making me feel better.