My avatar PIC the result of pancreitis with alcohol not a pretty sight, people seem to think I make things up , but really I should be dead .I live life on the edge till I get shocked out of self destruction, a cat has 9 lives I have lived 10 already, the things I write may seem harsh but depression is life tormentor and I say it has it feels to me . I sound know it all that's because I have lived and near died through most of it.