I am glad you will get counseling, in time it will help.
Try to hang in there till your appt. and come and talk to us whenever you wish, please hold on to the thought that brighter times come again, it is the waiting that is the hardest part. I say this from personal, true experience, I like many here have been to hell and back, and still sometimes have days, months, that we sort of find ourselves travelling near that road, with the help of supporters things can be a help and I have found many great people at this site that I am very thankful for, I feel confident you will meet many of these members here.
Please take care now,

DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON