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Old Nov 18, 2013, 04:22 PM
Jcon614 Jcon614 is offline
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Originally Posted by PrairieCat View Post
I've always had social phobias. When in high school, I strangely stopped talking to many of the kids that I knew and should have at least said 'Hi' to. I didn't know why I was doing that at the time, just knew it was weird. Right now, I don't much liking walking out my door unless I have to get groceries, Rx's, or go buy something fun. Whenever I buy something, I usually wonder if it is a hypomania purchase. That is awful, to have to wonder about that, even if it is something I really need, like new shoes. I do have friends and neighbors I talk to. I just find that I don't like too many people very much. I hate crowds, malls, crowded stores, etc. Sometimes I just hate people.
I tend to just go with my flow. I feel there's no other choice. I stay in until I feel like going out and being with people. When I do this, I do well! Sometimes I am able to force myself to get out, but that is not often.
I am experiencing extreme social phobia right now. This is proving to be very difficult with thanksgiving next week. I don't want to go. Extreme pressure to be there. I haven't gone anywhere in so long. I have no clothes, I feel awful about myself, and no one expects this from me. Too much to post...just don't want to see anyone, if that makes sense, and I don't mean in a light way, but an extreme anxiety.