Thanks for your replies everyone, I really do appreciate you all taking the time to read what I wrote and reply to me

Boopers, I work in a shop too so I can totally identify with the putting a face on for the customers. Sometimes though I just feel like I can't do it anymore. I find myself counting the hours and minutes till I don't have to be around them anymore

I'm going to see my doctor again on tuesday for my monthly appointment to discuss how I'm doing. I'm really going to try to tell her how I'm feeling this time and then maybe she can help me. I find it really hard to explain though as there isn't really anything I can explain and I'm not really a crying sort of person so I don't think its very obvious how bad I'm feeling.

I thought I might write a list, maybe that will me express myself a bit better, I'm dreading it though...I don't know why but I have this constant underlying fear that she will say theres nothing wrong with me, I'm imagining it or laugh at me. I know its irrational because a doctor surely wouldn't do that but it really bothers me, I know its stupid