So I got upset with my T today. I was talking about past abuse by showing her this drawing I did and she got this deeply sad look on her face. I made a comment that she seemed upset and asked if she wanted to save me in the image. She said something like "well I didn't know you at the time and I've really only heard your side of the story so I don't really know what happened". I felt so deeply invalidated that I forgot to ask her to clarify what she meant. I felt like she doesn't believe me that what I said happened is real.

So I wrote her a letter tonight to cope with my feelings of invalidation. In this letter, I get really REALLY angry with her to the point where I actually threaten to physically harm her if she doesn't tell me if she believes me and instead focuses on why I need her to believe me. After writing this empty threat, I quickly realized that I was displacing a TON of pent anger from being ignored throughout my childhood on her. I state this in the letter and say I'd never ever hurt her.

So my question is should I share this letter with her? I think it would probably be good to talk about my feelings and experiences relating to this, but I don't want to scare her or think that I'm dangerous. I'd never EVER hurt anyone, especially not her and I didn't even know I had that amount of aggression locked up inside to even say that I would.