vlynn,

THanks for your thoughts. I have been fighting these feelings off for many years. I give you credit for being able to do something for yourself. I am not sure if you suffer from depression or not but mine takes so much out of me it is harder to do anything for myself. I actually need four more classes to get a double masters degree; right now my depression is deep and I am not comfortable putting that pressure on myself.
Also, regarding being depressed; I flip flop everyday with I am hard to live with, I am too sensitive if I wasn't the things he said wouldn't hurt so much, I really don't know how to communicate etc. I am fighting to be who I want to be and not conform; this fight is my rebellious side and brings out my immaturity. It is a vicious cylce that I am having a hard time dealing with. I don't want to be treated like I child; I have to learn to not act like a child.
littlep