thank you cracking/firebird.
im trying to stay hopeful about finances but it seems like whenever my check comes in - the cash just flies out of my bank acct. im spending more than im getting and idk how. i had a few thousand saved up but now only few hundred. i made some bad choices in the beginning but even though im making better ones now its not seeming to slow down. but just slightly.

to see my dad stressed makes me more stressed becuase i know what hes stressed about and i get scared and worried about money too. and anything else.

anyway idk...
ive had a lot of demons following me around lately and i mean that literally. i see them.
i see them hovering over and around me. and around certain people in stores and like my mom.

luckily i see my therapist wednesday but i only get to see her once a month and its not enuf. even tho i need a new therapist im not sure i can afford it.