Hello,
I had my first bout of depression in 1996 , however I have been healthy for at least 9 years. I have had quite a few challenges between those years but I seem to deal with them well ( for example my husband beind diagnosed with cancer two weeks before our wedding, he is great now )
Since last summer I have been suffering with severe major depression. I was in hospital for two months and had ECT 12 times. When I was released in October I felt good, I had energy and drive. My family had been through sheer hell while I was away, the children didn't understand.
Well once again I feel I'm back to where I was in Aug , I spend most of my day in bed and have no energy. I am taken my meds, which the doctor just increased. But I am feeling things are just hopeless at the moment and I'm making everybody else's life miserable in the process.
I am trying to do the positive thinking , but I am feeling really desparate at the moment . I really don't want to have another spell in hospital because of the children , and my husband whose to pick up the pieces by himself.