Oh sis, I'm so sorry you're struggling on this front

While you know that I don't know jack about ED's and what they entail, I would like to offer something...

Can you make a list of physical consequences (example cutting off your hair) you have suffered due to your ED? That way you have a point of reference of good reasons why not to.

My thinking here stems from how you needed to uncharacteristically hold onto anger in order to move forward and survive your ex, so maybe if you bare in mind what the ED has cost you....

Idk, its just a thought, and while I am clueless, you can contact me anytime if you just want someone to listen.

I'm really sorry this has crept up on you, you have more than enough to contend with.

Love you muchness