Oh, honey. How I wish I'd known that postpartum depression/psychosis existed way back when I was having my kids. After the fifth one I used to have grisly fantasies about taking the baby with me and kneeling down on the railroad tracks with a train coming, or drowning us both in the lake.....it was AWFUL and I couldn't tell anyone about it for fear they would think I was a terrible mother.

I didn't know then that I was sick, or that it was a symptom of my then-undiagnosed bipolar disorder. Of course I never acted on it, but for the better part of a year I was terrified I would, and too ashamed even to tell my husband. Thank God it's all just a memory now, and thank God women are told about PPD now and warned about what to look for!!

Going into the hospital is a GREAT idea. You don't want to have to suffer for months and months like I did. Do whatever you need to, in order to keep you and your new little one healthy and happy. Take care, OK?