Quote:
Originally Posted by A Red Panda
I'd talk about it.
I do think it was rather manipulative of you (even if done unconsciously) to ask your T if she wanted to save you. She's told you already that she won't play that game with you, but she's also already told you that she does care about you. Anyone who cares wishes that the person they care about hadn't gone through horrible things - but there really is nothing that they can do about it except to try to help you in the moment. Which is exactly a T's job.
What she was was rather insensitive, but unfortunately she probably didn't have the time to really think through what she would say because if she simply said yes or no then you would have also had a huge reaction. It sounds like she was trying to explain why she wouldn't have been thinking about wanting to save you - because it was in the past and she can't change the past.
|
It's unfortunate that we are around each other so much. I say that because I can admit that it is unfortunate even though I actually really like it because it feeds the maternal transference. If you recall, I am seeing her in a residential treatment setting at the moment. She's already knocked on my door this morning and it's not even 8:30. She wanted to talk to me about a conversation I had with another one of her clients because last night, I was talking to this other client and she admitted to me that she hasn't eaten in a few days. I immediately reported this to the therapist that was still at the program, she called my T, and my T came to work early to ask me what I had heard from this other client and to handle the situation. So basically, I see her a LOT. I told her that we need to talk about this at some point during the day (after she gets my friend to start eating or comes up with a plan) so I just need to decide how much I will share of what I wrote if at all.
I shouldn't have said that. It was manipulative even though it was unintentionally. I should have instead said "I wish you were there to save me" or "I wish someone were there to save me" because that's what I was feeling. But I didn't say that and I think I just need to talk this out with her to correct the situation.