I have a much easier time taking care of other people than myself and that doesn't really indicate that I'm starting to become more responsible because there was never a point in time when I wouldn't jump on that, especially when my T asked me to keep an eye out for her. That sounds weird, but this client has been totally transparent in groups so I know her situation. She was crying all day long and my T had to leave early after she looked through some of my writing from the weekend. I have a tendency to isolate myself and she said that I should talk to this client because I'm "very good at talking to people", I need to not isolate myself, and she thinks this person just really needs someone to talk to. She said she trusts me to know what to say to help without making the situation worse. I did as T was hoping I would, we had a lovely chat after I convinced her to talk, and she ended up disclosing to me something that I perceived to be quite harmful. I convinced her to drink one of my whey protein shakes (because she said she is feeling too emotionally sick to keep down solid food and I figured 30grams of protein would be the best thing for her after not eating for so long) and I went and got help. I've strayed off topic with this story. But it's much easier for me to take care of others than myself.

I'll talk to T about my issue later. I told her I need to talk to her, but to handle this other situation first because it is more pressing and I need to sort out my thoughts. I don't know if I'll show her the real letter. I've said violent things before, but they were directed at my parents in the context that I could never do those things and they weren't in writing. She said she wasn't worried about me actually doing what I said to my parents and I don't know if turning it around on her makes it more worrisome or not.