Just got the Nora Jones CD Come Away with Me. I love it! There is one song that says perfectly how I feel sometimes. It is written by Lee Alexander and sung of course by Nora.

Feelin' The Same Way

The sun just slipped its note below my door
And I can't hide beneath my sheets
I've read the words before so now I know
The time has come again for me

And I'm feelin' the same way all over again
Feelin' the same way all over again
Singin' the same lines all over again
No matter how much I pretend

Another day that I can't find my head
My feet don't look like they're my own
I'll try and find the floor below to stand
And I hope I reach it once again

And I'm feelin' the same way...

So many times I wonder where I've gone
And how I found my way back in
I look around awhile for something lost
Maybe I'll find it in the end

And I'm feelin' the same way...

It is frustrating to me that even after all this time in therapy, this time reading up, learning about my problems, learning about myself, the mood hits me and it is EXACTLY the same. It never seems to change. Oh, it has gotten better. I have longer and longer periods between episodes but when it hits it hits just as hard and when I come out of it I have to wonder why. Then I will get on line and read all the info all over and again and see myself in the words on the screen, the episode written out in the discription of my illness. It makes me so sad. Ah well, just gotta take it as it comes and enjoy the peaceful times and be happy that the peaceful times are getting longer.
Carrie

<font color=blue>The important thing is this: to be able at any momeent to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.--Charles Du Bos