reesecups, I like day programs because of the added support. It took a long time for me to be comfortable with them, however I figured out how to get what I need (extra time to process things, and something else to fall back on) when I am more needy/in crisis. I have tried DBT many times, and have been kicked out each time for failing miserably (it was more of a trigger than a help, except this last time, but that group fizzled for lack of interest. By the 4th week, we only had 2 of us going). My issues with DBT stem from the way it is taught. It is very reminiscent of the way I was taught in childhood, which is a huge trigger for me. There's never a chance to talk things out. It always made me feel like I did everything wrong. After 6 failed attempts, I refuse to put myself in that position again.
The reason I may lose my T is because she is a T through the local sexual assault crisis center. I have to be "stable" in order to work on the trauma, and if I am not, then they will refer me out to someone else. My only problem is that I have yet to be able to stay stable when working on the trauma stuff, but this is the best I have ever been while doing it. I hope my T calls today and I can still see her...