I have had trust issues ever since the first man that has broken my heart when I was 18. Everything horrible any man can do has happened to me. I am now 25 and believe I am healed and ready for a relationship, so several months ago I unexpectedly met an amazing guy who treats my like every woman deserves to be treated. I have never had a connection like this before and I could definitely see myself growing old with this guy - something I've never felt.

However I now find myself self sabotaging my relationship expecting the absolute worst to happen because of what I have been through in the past with all the cheaters, liars, manipulators, and scum. I have not communicated my negative thoughts and feelings to him, I dont want him to think I am some crazy debbie downer.

I think more than often when I am not near him that hes going to cheat and I keep on trying to mentally prepare myself for it. When I am with him those thoughts rarely come to mind. He has given me absolutely no reason to believe so and I just want these negative thoughts and feelings to go away without having to tell him. I just want to close the bad book of relationships and doubts already...Your thoughts?