I know I have low self-esteem and I am now realizing that as a result, Ive done some minor things that ended up making me into the last person I wanted to become.

The whole vision Ive always had about myself being a good person despite everything else has been shattered and I am finding myself having to rexamine every motive and action I take. I feel as if everything Ive been doing is totally wrong and hopeless enough that I feel I dont know how I am ever gonna remedy the mistakes Ive made so that things can go back to being OK.

My question is though, lately my own self-deprecating ways have caused me to feel guilty about everything good I have in my life. Like something as simple as wanting to buy a new dress, this guilty feeling builds up and in my mind I start to talk myself out of buying it, not because I cant afford it or because I am using money I should be using elsewhere, but because I dont feel I deserve it. And if I do buy it, for brief moment I feel good and then its right back down to the point where I have to fight the urge to return it.
Do any of you guys encounter this and how do you cope with it?

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