Right now I am able to end therapy if I choose. My years with T helped me learn about myself, how to regulate emotions, behave more authentically and with less dysfunction. I am calmer, less prone to the suffering of anxiety, fear, self-loathing, anger, etc.

I'm not saying I am free of those painful emotions but that I'm better able to explore them and understand them and with better ability to work through challenges in my relationships.

With this ability I am less reliant on my T even though in the past I was very attached and dependent on her.

I do love her as a person who has helped me through my worst times and she knows me better than anyone else.

And, for that reason, I choose not to end therapy. My issues are not as urgent or painful as in the past but I love having the option to continue to explore and examine new things that come up for me in therapy.

I suspect I will never end therapy if I can continue to have that opportunity. My relationship with her is precious.

And, another thing, I love to be honest with friends that I have a therapist. There is a certain stigma attached to being in therapy sometimes and so I like the opportunity to show people that a 'normal', functioning person like myself can still benefit from the process.