Hey Sis

I sat here reading this and it breaks my heart . I know exactly how your feeling and needing control .. I have things pretty much under control except I am well on my way to restriction and unhealthy thought process with foods, again.

I stopped doing loads of self harm and it has felt great but my dysfuntional brain doesn't seem to know HOW to manage with out some form of (un) healthy was of doing so.

I glad Trippin has bring up the issues with anger and control .. I mean really what is the one thing you control to extremes,,,,,,, your food intake.

Try and allow yourself some wiggle room and not go full on anorexia right now , Yeah I know its hard ,,, But one meal aday ,, with your kids at nite at least . Increase your fluids by all means..

I'm Always here for you Sis .. Anytime