So I posted some stuff a little while ago, when things were difficult here at home, today Id love some helpful advice.

My husband had been diagnosed with Schizophrenia recently and of course things have been rocky.

We have been married for 3 years, in those three years we have had a lot of good days, and some ripper fights. Im not a skinny woman, but he knew that when he married me.
He used to be all over me before the diagnosis, and I am aware that the medications can affect that, but the other night we had a massive argument.

You see, it seems like i dont exist most of the time. He doesnt want to touch me, and certainly doesnt seem to desire me.
I asked him why and he said my weight was the issue, that he doesnt find me attractive at all.

So i asked myself what is the point in being in a relationship where my spouse cannot love me for the way I am.
When I said to him that maybe we should look at divorce he said to me that he doesnt see how we cant work this out.

When he had his original episode, he belittled me, telling me that I was Jezabel from the bible, the biblical *****. He threw out all my clothes and forced me to wear size 8 when I was an 18, and proceeded to cast demons from me.

Now dont get me wrong, i understand that was the episode talking, unfortunately now, i feel as if this is a breaking point.
After our argument the other day, he decided to journal his thoughts and feelings for his Psych, that lasted one night. As did his incredibly happy mood.
It was amazing, he was touching me and wanting release.

Its been 3 days and he has stopped all the nice affectionate stuff and I am wondering, will this ever stabalise? Will he ever desire me? Is it really worth putting myself through this when I feel like I am fading away.
I dont want to be one of those couples that only have intercourse once or twice a year, i want children and joy, and love.

Is there any advice out there that can help this? Is this normal? Will he ever want me?