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Originally Posted by Petra5ed
That would have really hurt me as well. I mean really. If my T said something like that I would totally shut down, why bother saying anything else? I'm kind of mad at your T that she said that! I almost want to tell you to fire her, and my gut feeling is you should. I personally need my T to believe me. If they cant believe me because "they weren't there and are only hearing one side of things" then they better bullsh*t really good, because I wouldn't be able to talk about my story to someone that could think so lowly of me.
I would definitely NOT give her the letter. Even though you don't mean to threaten her now, there is just too great a likelihood it will be misinterpreted. She could have you put in a mental hospital with the note as her proof. Also, I'm shady about her in general given that comment she made.
I would talk to her about your anger specifically about the comment she made. If you want to mention the threat I would be vague about it.
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lol well I'm already basically in a mental hospital but not for thoughts of harming anyone else.
I told her how I felt. She said she remembers saying that and thought she worded it badly. She apologized and said she definitely believes me and doesn't need my mother's "side of the story" to believe me. She was trying to say that she can wish she could have saved me all she wants (or all I could have wanted her to) but it won't change the fact that she wasn't there and can't go back in time.
I told her I got very angry and she said she'd rather have me violently angry with her than violently angry at myself. She didn't ask to see the letter or take it. I blacked out the threat in advance so I could use the rest of the note without worrying about that part. But she wasn't at all concerned that I'd act violently ever. She was concerned that I was so upset.
The talk ended with me sitting on the top of the staircase, asking her to pat my back as I cried for no easily discernible reason. It was awkward for me to ask for her to do that. I just wanted to feel someone being there physically. She seemed very happy to comply with that request.