i am so sorry for what you had and have to go through (((((((hugs if its ok with you)))))))))) My heart goes out to you. I agree with Rap, maybe there is someone you could talk to like a counciler or something. What if you called social services? They might be able to help. Call the police or tell a neighbor. You definitely need to get out of the environment that your in right now. How old are you. that may play a good factor in things you can do, places you can go. Try talking to a priest...or someone like that...even if you arent religious i bet they can help. I know they try to do as much as they can. Good luck, my prayers are with you. PM me anytime you want.