My god the effort of starting a thread is damn near excruciating. How can I be sure that it is of any value at all? I am embarassed by every word I write. Language seems completely insufficient for the general tumultuousness of this condition.

I am new to here as of this evening and excited to talk to fellow BPD sufferers (and others too), so if I end up rambling in long, tangental passages that are impenetrably obtuse, please tell me that I'm becoming incommunicable and I'll remember to keep myself in check...

An issue I was weighing up recently was the pursuit of diagnosis...those of you who have been diagnosed - what has been your experience of life post-diagnosis as opposed to pre-?

I first researched BPD about 6 months ago and everything suddenly clicked - it was like the symptomatology actually defined me...almost to the extent where I feel like I would totally cease to exist were it not for this affliction. I have sought mental health care which has been inadequate so far to say the least (rather for the lack of specificity than anything else...I was allowed only basic counselling, CBT, or alcohol support from my local council), but I am keen for more help. Am I striving needlessly for something which will always fall short of my expectations, or is it worth the pursuit if only for the finality of 'knowing for sure' (to whatever extent one can)?

Any input would be so gratefully received, and many apologies if I am coming across as woefully self-indulgent. It is impossible to talk to strangers! Friends also though.