Cuddle the pillow if it helps ...
Feeling like a "baby" is surprisingly normal for people who have any MH problems... I know I've been there. Felt like I just want to curl up in my mom's arms (though, not actually my mom... but who I wish my mom was) like a small child.
Therapy is hard stuff... but it can be very helpful if you find the right person.
Hugs,
Jacq