I have everyone calling now to check up on me, as far as therapists go. My therapist, the crisis line through the community center I go to, and the suicide hotline crisis team.

I'm just so numb and exhausted since that happened. Trying to keep going on, acting like nothing has happened. I was lucky that I was in the farthest parking lot from my school when the EMS arrived, but just the thought of someone I know seeing that has me anxious. Then I had to call a cab to take me back to school because my husband was at work and I don't want my family to know.

I don't even know anymore.