I was officially diagnosed in January but diagnosed myself almost a year prior. Like you, I've had very little counseling at this point. Finances and life in general keeps preventing me.

Read all you can about BPD. Read posts and talk to us. Realize you are not alone. That in itself goes a very long way. There is nothing worse than to feel you are alone in your tumult of feelings and that is no longer true. Also, the better you know BPD and yourself and various treatments, the better you will be. There is no cure, but knowing yourself and BPD and your past and how it all fits together as well as feeling part of a community that understands is a good start and goes a long way. It's why most of us are here. We are a very dysfunctional yet loving, understanding family. Welcome.