Only my T's have known most of it. Was even ashamed they knew. But when I stated the PHP in group, they were aware of it because it had been discovered when I was in the psych ward. They kept pushing me to disclose so that others who did it could benefit. What a load of BS. No one ever admitted doing anything similar or supported me in group. There was only one time someone even seemed to be interested enough to ask questions and didn't make me feel like a freak. She said she had never done it to herself, but had often done it to others. A couple months later, she began to do it to herself. I've always blamed myself for that. Yes, it was her choice, but maybe if I'd kept my mouth shut, she would have never seen it as an option.

Told my best friend and he was convinced it was a suicidal gesture and was convinced that I was trying to kill myself. And nothing I said to him could convince him otherwise. When he was psychotic, he obsessed over it to the point I had to stay away so he would focus on himself and not what he thought I would do.

If I had it to do all over again, my therp would be the only one I would tell.