i feel so furtunate to be able to come here and talk about my feelings right now--it does not even matter if anyone responds---it helps just to express what i am feeling---i have been feeling bad for awhile now--i spoke to my therapsist and he said that he knows that i am strong enough to deal with this
my daughter moved in with her dad last year because i really thought it would be good for her--she was having a lot of trouble in school and getting into trouble---she has been there over a year and her dad does not want me to have anything to do with her--and now she has told me that she never wants to hear from me again
all i could think was how could something else bad be happening in my life? my daughter is over 1000 miles away and i cannot see or talk to her and she seems to have completely forgotten about me--she is 13 and she lived with me for the first 12 years of her life--i don't know how she can do this--and i don't understand why her dad would encourage this--it hurts so much
things are so horrible that it almost seems funny-- i mean no one can be this depressed--have their boyfriend leave her after 2 years and lose their daughter all in one week
i have no idea how i am doing this anymore
anyone thanks for listening and making me feel their is a safe place that i can go to talk