Today was my first chemo therapy treatment. I have been sick all night and I was really hoping my friends, through text message even, could be supportive of me and maybe tell me that this hell is temporary and they'll be there for me.

No one contacted me. The one who did said "we can't talk about it, I'm sick." lol you're sick? I just had straight chemicals put into my body and my brain feels like mush. I wish I just had a flu.

I feel so god damn isolated again. Like the only reason people contact me is because they feel bad. And just in case something goes wrong, they wont have the guilt of realizing they've been terrible.

I had no support today. The one day I have been dreading for a month. I am so angry and annoyed but who is going to care to listen anyway?