Just still going on with my relationship...
Seems impossible to leave... It has improved - My L is kinder now - not exactly kinder but he doesn't use abusive words anymore but I keep feeling like he is treating me as a criminal - someone who's under constant watch 24x7 - I don't have time for myself at all .. It is okay if things were good and we had only occasional fights but, he isn't going to be over my past and says that till we get married, he will go behind my past as he has the right to(???? really ???).. He said that we can live all we want after marriage but now he wants to make sure I am trustworthy and he keeps asking me to prove that I am where I say I am if he is not with me..
Sometimes I kind of believe him and submit to all he asks... At least he isn't using abusive words anymore - but I am scared to be with him... I want to leave - only then I know that I can do something proper with my life - but I am scared and don't know how to