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Originally Posted by Teen Idle
Today was my first chemo therapy treatment. I have been sick all night and I was really hoping my friends, through text message even, could be supportive of me and maybe tell me that this hell is temporary and they'll be there for me.
No one contacted me. The one who did said "we can't talk about it, I'm sick." lol you're sick? I just had straight chemicals put into my body and my brain feels like mush. I wish I just had a flu.
I feel so god damn isolated again. Like the only reason people contact me is because they feel bad. And just in case something goes wrong, they wont have the guilt of realizing they've been terrible.
I had no support today. The one day I have been dreading for a month. I am so angry and annoyed but who is going to care to listen anyway?
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I'm sorry to hear you're going through this unpleasant procedure and also sorry to hear you don't feel you have any sort of quality social support. To go through something like this and also feel lonely is tough. Why don't you try to be more direct, tell people what you need., text them or call them and say you need support. Maybe they need reminders, maybe they're uncomfortable with what you're going through as you are with it yourself.
Obviously we don't know each other and maybe my suggestions are not that useful. I'm not sure if me sending my good wishes and a hug means anything to you but I'm gonna send it anyways. I wish you strength and hope and happiness.