My T has really helped me to overcome some major issues in my life that I never thought I would be able to get over.
He has helped me realise and accept that I suffer with depression and find ways to help myself cope.
However, the more I carry on with T and study myself, my thoughts and behaviour the more faults I find with myself and it brings me down. I know that nobody is perfect but I find that I'm so hard on myself.
I can really relate to the saying "ignorance is bliss".
I'm stubborn and can't get motivated to change yet on the other hand, I beat myself up for being like this and not being able to change.
I really wish I hadn't started all this self studying as it turning into self loathing.
There seems no end to it as I know I will never be able to achieve my own unrealistic high expectations.
Sorry for waffling on.
Is this some sort of personality disorder? Does anybody else feel like this?