hello im new to this forum as well and about not wanting to talk to a counselor if you start seeying a psychiatrist (not therapist) you just tell them your problems then they try different meds/dosages till they find the right one and u normaly only see them once a month for like 5-15 mins i have that same problem i don't like talking to therapists also find one ur comfortable with but you should atleast see a psychaitrist if not both a psych and a therapist and thats good that u dumped ur bf , i smoke pot as well but ive never wanted it bad enough to ask a gf for money for it thats kind of lame if u dont have it u dont have it not the end of the world