I suppose when you're sitting in an empty house trying to type everything out while frustrated then that attitude passes through. I do love her very much, and I do a lot for her but I didn't want to sound like i was "bragging" or whatever. I do the things I do for her because I love her, and I want to do those things to make her happy. Not so that I can get sex in return. And i'll continue to do all of the things I do even if I never get oral sex.

I didn't intend to come off like I don't care, I just suppose I wanted to give you the facts and explain exactly what had happened before I started belly aching.

Maybe I need to sit down and make a list of the unexpected things I do for her like taking her lunch or sneaking out of bed early to get the baby so she can sleep in on saturday mornings. She didn't have to change a single diaper (except the first one in the hospital) for the first 4 weeks after he was born. Breast feeding was difficult for her so I would get up with her every time he fed and help her hold his head so he could get a good latch and tell her what a good job she was doing. I had surprised her with the concert tickets early in the summer, so that she and her best friend could go. I'm sure I could go on and on but I don't really keep a list of things I do for her, it's not fair to try to decide who gives the most in the relationship.

And like i said in the beginning, I don't think it's so much the sex or whatever, that's what I blame it on. I know that I'm just as happy when I get home from a long day and she's ready to meet me with arms open wide and a big kiss and we can sit down and talk about our day. But that doesn't happen often either.

But yes, i've been a complete and total but hole to her throughout this argument for sure, if i were going to try and defend myself or come up with excuses then you wouldn't have gotten the whole story. Just wanted to let you know that I do realize that, and I do feel horrible about it.