Hello I am sorry to hear that you are having a hard time at this time. I wouldnt give up on your daughter or yourself. You can always write your daughter and still try to have a relationship with your daughter. You also need to think about your mental health as well and not let your mental health become too fragile if you can. You need to look after youself as well. I hope your therapist can help get you through this difficult time. Take care I hope the best for you Soidhonia